opportunity knock...but there is something hold me back

What would you do, when all you ever been dreaming of finally in front of your face...the offer is too tempting to resist ( if this happen earlier, i might be able to decide in an instant not even a single second wasted), but now..."i seriously do not need to fall in love if this whole thing happen!!!"

And yet, i still do not know what should i do...this whole thing is drowning me back....not only drowning but holding me back.
what should i do?should i just take it...and plan my escape as always, or just give up???

Sister...

Dare i said that having a sister sometimes can be a blessing in a trash, i do not mean that rude. Anyway i have to admit that i do have a communication problem with my sister and it driving me bogus!!

She could be a she-evil sometimes, she could be an angel sometimes...what am i supposed to do?the problem is never ending, and not because i do not want to solve it but because she seems to avoid it(maybe it runs in the family, i do avoid to solve most of my communication problem with my family and pretend everything is okay...)

All i know, i'm just afraid that someday it will damage the whole system in my family...but when the other party decide that it is best not to talk about it, what should i do then??

Thank God, i still have my younger sister...she's the one that help me through this whole mess in my life(beside my friends)